Through the fall and winter, I was going through some tough things - work crap, back injury crap, low self esteem crap, and the most sobering - my older sister was diagnosed with breast cancer. Which, considering she is only 36, was utterly shocking, especially since we just witnessed Matt's Mom go through the same battle. Her positivity is overwhelming and sometimes I feel guilty for being upset when she has such a positive outlook. She truly finds the best in all situations, and this is no different. Like she intended from the beginning, she has owned her cancer - rocking her shaved head, different wigs and hats, and not letting it dampen her spirit. I'd expect nothing less from her, quite honestly, she's always been that way. I wish I could be as strong as she is, but it isn't about fear of losing her; I have no doubt in my mind she is going to be perfectly fine. It is just hard to watch her lose her energy and feel the effects from chemo. I wish I could take her pain away, but she always has an energetic spark in her eye. The next year will be tough as she continues her treatments, but she makes fighting cancer look good!
I'd intended to get back to blogging at the beginning of 2015, but that is when she got the diagnosis. Writing about makeup and skincare seemed so trivial and ridiculous and superficial and shallow. But she isn't letting cancer stop her from doing the things she loves, maybe postpone them a bit, but I think about her and instantly think - Joie de Vivre! She embodies that phrase through and through.
So here I am, back and ready to take a page out of her proverbial book and do what I love! And if I ever needed a distraction or a creative outlet, now is the time! I've been told I'm the perfect candidate for disc replacement surgery for my back, I stopped my birth control and became a hormonal, pimply mess, and I've had some disappointments at work. And I've still got the pimples....boooooo. So, I might as well talk about something fun, right?
Part of my nightly routine to decompress before bed involved watching YouTube videos - mostly beauty related, of course. And throughout the last year, I thought over and over that I could do that. I have things to say about beauty products. So, completely on a whim while alone at home yesterday afternoon, I filmed my very first YouTube video! Why not?!?!?! Maybe no one will watch it, maybe no one will subscribe, maybe no one cares what I have to say, but that's ok! I had a blast filming and editing, and I can't wait to feel that high again! Though I may have had some technical difficulties with focusing and whatnot, I intend to follow through with this and learn as much as I can!!
Do you care what I have to say?? Join me on my channel - Emily Walker (no creative name yet) and watch my first video where I discuss my recommendations and wishlist for the upcoming Sephora VIB Sale!
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